start at the chest and move slowly down....ooooh. (the sugarcubes)
desire pulsing through the body...recently, it's a longing a very pleasant pleasurable longing....
here i am...having a really good time at work because i have things to do! feeling productive, purposeful, so much more rewarding. i wrote courtney a letter...reflecting on how resistant i was for so long to working more than 20 hours for fear it would take away my free time but i was not free in my time away from work, i was consumed with worry and stress over money, job-searching, reluctant to do anything that cost money. now with my 30 hour work week i feel free at work...free to express and create from my strengths in the contribution of our community, the library's resources, and i feel free away from work...the foundation of financial stability and basic happiness to play and enjoy life. and i am also so grateful i didn't get any 40 hour work week jobs that would have taken me away from this area. it is truly HOME here, and yesterday i so felt it, in my body, that i could not leave. i could not uproot myself from my nourishing community and land here. 1000% improvement here...in my life situation. there are zen adages about if you want something getting it won't make you happy...yes i heard this from spiritual folk and teachings while i was struggling last year, but really, making enough money to live does matter and having work that is meaningful makes a difference! and i have been so much happier for it...meeting the basic needs has allowed me the freedom to be happy.
i would like to visit NandJ in Seattle
and chicago...people and architecture
first beach...then? we'll see. have to save the money.
very content to be here right now...settling in to my new home.
found 2 opera chairs at surplus sids + a lamp
found a nightstand at Oddities and Such
cool
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