seeing me

• i call my mom when i am experiencing uncomfortable emotions and want her to fix it
• i eat food when i am in emotional or psychic pain to avoid the feelings
• i judge in others what is always an attribute of my own of which i am most in denial
• i compare myself to others better or less than
• i seek outside of myself for approval validation love and pleasure...relief from suffering...i make it someone else's responsibility!!!! isn't that INSANE?!
• i sometimes fall for the false belief that i know better, am more "evolved" than other people?!?!
• even though my concerns are so SHALLOW! ego surface how sad to see myself how much energy i've wasted in presentation 
• seeing lots of arrogance and stupidity on my part here!
• and spiritual LAZINESS
• i know the right things to say
• i read the books
• another thing to decorate me
• even another way to avoid the pain...mastering the concepts!
• hahaha