Tuesday, January 17, 2012

been a long time...shouldn't have left you (me)

i abandon myself
when i most fear abandonment
by grasping, seeking outside
stay with the experience, the feeling
it is a pattern when the pain surfaces to push it down
since feelings were not allowed in my home, just compliance and aquiescence
punished for crying
an emotion lasts, what, like 9 seconds? let it flow, girl
go into it...the cure for pain is in the pain, that's what Rumi said, right?

read so much Rumi yesterday...so amazingly resonant and relevant through Coleman Barks
collages
tea
book
nap
hula hoop
dance
letters
phone calls
laundry
dishes
beets
meditation
friend visits
a great couple of days

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